I don't think I like working like I say I like it.
These last days, I felt that I love working, but differently. I used to think that I just love hard scale and making money. That's right. I love that. But you know what? I love my creativity.
Actually, I don't like just having a vision.
I think I'm way better at doing than at thinking.
Strange. I know.
But I think I love thinking: about new businesses, new ideas, new features, …
And I'm quite good at it actually (I guess).
But I'm a freaking overthinker.
It means that, I can have a great idea every 10sec.
And this is (sometimes) hard to manage.
I just can't focus my mind when I'm doing "thinking" sessions.
This is why it's sometimes hard for me to make choices.
Because choosing is also thinking.
And this is hard for me.
Because I think a lot.
At the opposite, I can enter HYPER-FOCUS mode when I'm doing operational things. This is extremely easy for me. I can build a website, an application, and spend the whole day doing it. This is extremely easy for me, and I'm very very good at it.
For example, when I'm coding, I achieve so much:
Hyper focus on coding + decision making + marketing + design + lot of things I'm good at…
So, how to manage that?
→ I guess I need to keep working on operations. Not too much, but a little bit every day so I can feel what I like in the work. And actually, I don't like managing etc. It's so boring. Really. I like creating. I like designing. I like thinking and doing at the same time (coding, writing emails, making content, … It's all about THINKING AND MAKING at the same time).
I also think that I need balance in my life.
And I don't mean "work-life" kind of balance.
I mean balance between building my future (scaling the business, making it better, …) and creating for fun. Like building a SAAS just because I want it.
I don't want to be overwhelmed by that, but I'm sure I can use my free time to create, instead of consuming too much content.
I also like doing nothing.
Like an animal.
Just sitting in the sofa.
1h.
Sleeping maybe.
Or just thinking.
No phone.
No distractions.
Just me here, because all of that life is just nothing.
We hardly try to make it have sense, but ultimately, it doesn't have any.
So I like that.
Just doing nothing.
And I feel it gives me energy.
It's giving me power.
And I like it.